I write this post as my eyes are filled with tears and my heart, happiness. I can't believe I'm here. I made it. I'm out of the 200's forever. What a feeling!
Today marks several little victories:
2. 60 pounds lost
3. .6 away from being out of the "Obese" BMI range.
I've not seen the 100's since the late 90's and it was only then for a brief time. I've been obese all my adult life and this, this is surreal. I never, ever thought I would see this side again. Even with the band, my poor self esteem always talked me down; always talked me out of the possibilites.
Last night I went to Zumba. It's of course in the main studio where mirrors surround you. For the first time, I didn't feel like the big girl in the class. For the first time, I didn't wanna run out and leave because the sight of myself in the mirror was nauseating. For the first time, I looked at myself and saw the much smaller version. I might've looked like a dork with my poor dance/aerobic skills - but being happy with myself, I didn't care.
Having done diet, after diet, after diet - my entire adult life, I really didn't know how the band was going to change that. Sure, I would eat smaller portions but I would still have to diet, right? Not at all. Over the last 5 months, I've learnt what the whole "Lifestyle Change" thing really is. All the many changes I've made personally just amaze me. I just never, ever thought I'd be someone healthy and live for a healthy lifestyle. The band brought me so much more than smaller portions; it changed my life, as a whole.
With 25 to go until I reach my goal, I've got this. I know the scale won't be as speedy as the first 62 pounds and that is fine. I've got happiness. And I've not had happiness in so, so long. And that my friends, is the biggest victory.