finally, football

it's that time again. finally. i swear, i don't look forward to anything more than football season, other than shoes for a good price!! =) football season is always good times with family and friends. i love it.

as for an update on my last blog...my first week back on weight watchers has been great! i snuck and weighed yesterday and im down a little over 3 lbs, in just 5 days....but i will offically weigh back in on Sunday. im so excited. sweet hubby is doing it with me, which makes it so much easier and puts a constant motivation in the house.

not much else to stay for now except, Go Vols and Hook'em Horns!

i love kelly clarkson

being 27 years old [only days til the big 2-8] i have never really had anything in mind of what i want to look like. ive always just been me. well, i love kelly clarkson. i love her look. her hair. her smile. her body...she is perfect...not thin/not chunky. we started the treadmill this past sunday as well as weight watchers and i am so motivated. i have goals....20 lbs. down by my bday [oct. 3], 45-50lbs down total by new years eve. when i hit 20lbs. - i get my new hairstyle, as ive posted below. i so excited. so motivated. ive really not set goals in a while.....may motiviation keep a hold of me and kick me in the ass until i have accomplished, the new me!!

my life is back to normal

aaaah. the quietness of the house. the doors to the outside world...remaining shut for longer than 10 min. at a time. no swatting at flies. cleaning up crumbled cookies on the floor or spilt fruity punch on the counter. yes, the kids are back in school. and today was wonderful. i saw peace that i hadn't saw since, well - the last day of school, in May. so nice. my house is clean. there aren't an army of flies joining the forces with the other army's that set up camp in my house this summer - due to the running in and out of the little ones. and the best thing - i actually have juice in the fridge when i go and get some - instead of an empty container. nah - i missed the little ones today, but not as much as i enjoyed my peace and quiet for a few hours.

tomorrow is the first meeting at DCS since June, along with a new case manager for tater. i hope she is on the ball and the ball is in tater's court. as the days pass, the thought of her birth mom sickens my stomach even more. this little girl does not need to go back to that sorry excuse for a mother. its in the process of going to court that her visits be terminated indefinatly, until further notice - which will be wonderful! she never talks about her birth mom or family. she is happy here. healthy here. clean here. loved here. im sure until it gets passed in court - we will have to have a visit this week, which i will not be thrilled about, and recommend that it is in the DCS office with non-stop supervision. (like me watching thru the 1-way mirror in the visitiation room). i love this little girl so much. yes, it's exhausting trying to shape her into a normal, healthly, happy, and clean little girl - but it's all worth it. i pray, pray so hard, that she doesn't return to the birth mom. we want her forever.