Days 1 & 2 of the five-day pouch...check!
Liquids are done and if I may brag wee little bit; I did quite well. This morning I had the best.tasting.eggs, ever. Yes, they were scarmbled a la microwave style here at the office, but having not ate in 2 days, they were eggcellent! I also had 2 pieces of turkey bacon. I sat down and ate what I could in 15 minutes, just like a good little girl. I was able to finish about half the egg and both pieces of bacon. For lunch, I brought sweet and spicy tuna. Yummy. Today and tomorrow will be soft proteins. I also picked up some Chobani last night to try. I'm not a yogurt person at all, but Grace and Amanda have a mad love for it, so I wanted to try it out. I brought it for lunch today also. I have to admit, the commericals make it look so.damn.good.
So, I think I kind of jumped the gun last week with the big loss into onederland. I kept getting 199.something. Twice I got 196 - of course, I went with that. So, I think my true, true weight was 199.6, not 196.8, as reported. During the horrrrrrible weekend I had last week, all 5 days of it, I had jumped back up to 205.1. So with that number, and let me say that was mostly sodium weight, as I didn't eat THAT much, I know I really didn't get down to 196. My sweet and always supportive husband tried to maybe suggest that, but seeing I was so excited - he drifted off into being silent about it. The last few days have made the scale move way down and I know I will be back down to pre-sabotage weight by the end of the weekend. Life is good.
So, I have a bit of personal junk I wanna ask your opinion about. I try to keep that out of blog world but I feel your unbiased guidance may help.
Flashback: 2008 I became friends quickly with these 2 girls. One was a roomate of my childhood best friend and the other was the above roomates childhood best friend. We clicked quickly and became as close as sisters. In August 2009 there was something minor happened that was ultimately blown out of proportion, that caused one of the girls and I to drift apart and because she had been life long friends with the other girl, she too drifted away. In June of last year, church brought us back together. But, we aren't the same. They never call, text, FB, email. They always want to "get together" but only make plans amongst each other; the only texts I do get state how much I'm missed, loved and how we need to get together - but yet never get invites. I used to ask them to get together all the time, but after the "yes we need to's" never evolved into anything - I just kind of stopped. My question is, do I just need to move on? My fear is letting go will hurt so bad, yet my husband tells me the emotional hell I'm being put through is ten times worse. I look at it even further and realize that there really isn't anything here to actually let go of, right? I mean, we've done nothing since July of last year. Do I talk to them about it? Or do I just gracefully bow out? I shall say I have lots of beautiful, close friendships; I am truly blessed. Your thoughts?
Can I please get some cheese with my wine?