and it was then, i remembered.

today i realized that there are only 4 months left in the year.
& i have not completed all my new years resolutions.
yes, i am OCD and take these very seriously.
sweet hubbs finds it amusing, as they once never mattered.
but i put some pretty fun stuff on my list - & i guess
maybe id be disappointed if i didn't complete them.
and yes, there are the same not so joyous ones that tops
everyone's list each year - debt. weight. new car. to answer
those, briefly: yes. (still got it). yes (lost a little). & yes.
i blogged yesterday about a new hobby that im in search
of. i then i realized earlier that. i love cakes.
& loving cakes...it made my list of resolutions.
to take a cake decorating class, actually.
so, im happy again that i remembered this
great bit of information & am ISO a class.

check THIS out. its funny haha, not funny queer.

ISO: a fun, easy, something!

sadly, as crafty as i have been in the last year, is when i redecorated
our guest bathroom.

i really want to find a new craft. all the scrapbooking
i see online, is so amazing; but it all seems so overwhelming. any suggestions?
something thats easy to get started. low cost. & great to pass the time?

are you ready for some football????

tis the season, my friends.

fall & football!!

so for your first football party of the season,

ya gotta try this dip.

jalapeno popper dip

- 16 ounces cream cheese, softened - 1 cup mayonnaise - 4 ounces green chilies, diced - 4 ounces jalapeno peppers, diced and drained - 1/2 cup parmesan cheese, shredded Directions Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Combine cream cheese, mayo and peppers. Pour mixture into a baking dish. Sprinkle with parmesan cheese. Bake for 30 minutes, until cheese is bubbly and brown. Serve with crackers or tortilla chips.

it'll make the men

folk happy.

OMG! Where have you been????

no, no. i was taken hostage by a krispy kreme delivery truck.

yea, yea...and was held captive in the back of an old warehouse.

by 2 mexicans. an 80s metal hairband. and a poodle.

ok yea.

so i broke free today. after weeks of solitude and rushed

right online to my blog.

ok, so the delivery truck sounded nice. kind of. well ok, not so

much on the hips.

i missed you all.

i took some time away.

sweet hubbs and i just finished round one of

our first fertility treatment.

it wasn't successful.

so we are immediatly trying again.

i missed all my blog pals and your wonderful blogs.

i can't wait to catch up.

off for a cup of java

and lots of wonderful reading.

dear strange women,

a random babbling
from my heart.



o dearest pokey driver,
who pulled out in front of me today.
did you wake up with intentions,
to just get in my way?
for there was no other cars behind me,
so i just dont quite understand.
how you can just pull out and sit there -
on the highway. in your van.
im glad to know that to you,
that im not visible at all.
the red SUV i drive,
must not be so big, after all.
you made me late for work today,
&& for you I will say a prayer.
for the next time you will obey
the speed limit and not
make me wanna swear.

there is a speed limit.

i can assure you it's above 10 ★

& i'm rather impressed.

i totally just made that up.

on a personal note.

this week holds a few changes.
for the hubbs && i.
first, i will be starting my workout
routine back.
im thinking 3 months off is a very
generous vacation.
secondly, im going to get a new
book.
this being said from one who tends
to but reading on the back burner.
next, im going back to all vegetables
& chicken only diet.
i feel great when i take out the
cows & piglets.
most importantly, tomorrow is our first
appointment with our fertility specialist,
since 2004. actually, this is a new specialist.
my neighbors recently had triplets, so i was like,
"and your going to what dr?".
my appointment was made shortly there after.
having been trying for 8 years, we have finally
decided what course of action we are proceeding
with next. i will post details as soon as i find
them out tomorrow.
please pray. we are so ready to be blessed
with precious children.

first comes love.

then comes marriage.

then comes baby

in a baby carriage.

weird. smeird.

i do not believe in all the astrological - stars are in
alignment. this is your sign, jargin.
if you do, your weird.
-now, moving on.
[insert giggle]
so, recently, ive had i believe 3 very troubling dreams.
not going into specific details.
but it involves the loss of a loved one.
- a very close loved one.
&& it came again last night.
the type of so real dream. you wake up
in tears. and it takes you 3 moments to snap out
of the "that was only a dream, niko that
was only a dream".
so. there i sat. in my room.
alone. center of bed. it was early morning.
the sun barely peeking from behind the clouds.

& then here - comes the curiosity.

i tried to talk myself
out of it. but, already my hand had led me to the
laptop. to the mouse. to the internet. to
my favorite search engine.
and slowly the word appeared: d r e a m s
what was i doing? searching for the meanings of
dreams on the internet? why dont i just pull
up my tarot card readings while im at it?
so here i sit. what to do now?
id gone this far...so, why not read the results?
[insert deep breathe] *click

first few links:
death + loved one = marriage
death + loved one = birth
death + loved one = concern
ok. catching on. doesnt seem creepy.
so, apparently i am concerned over someone that is
getting married and having a baby.
hmmm.

page 7.
death + loved one = need to sale house & move.
death + loved one = cut ties with that stressful relationship.
page 8
death + loved one = you have fallen out of love with this person. your
relationship is not as close as it use to be.
death + loved one = this is a sign to set your pet lizard free. the unhappiness
of the pet lizard is being portrayed thru your dreams.
page 9
death + loved one = the abundance of moldy cheese you keep in your cupboards
is resulting in ill-maintained relationships.

sccccreetch.

what the what?
so now, i am suppose to sell my house because i have fallen out of love with someone who has a pet lizard and keeps moldy cheese?

so, i leave here today. distressed. that the
search engine, my fav of all time, did not
come through for me in my dream interpretation.
& im now stressing more over the pet lizard & moldy
cheese.

on to clean the cabinets and check closets for
a trapt reptile.